In the intimacy of my relationship with God, I am going to offer Him my little treasures of the day, like the child who is very happy with the drawing he made for his father. It’s not much, but it’s the best I could do with my limitations. Before others, I always point to God as the artisan: He inspires me, He gives me strength, He pushes me, He illuminates me… Always! Glory to God!
So she begins to read one, opening it roughly in the middle. She gets hooked and can’t stop reading… nor crying. She discovered that her mother absolutely hated beets and always ate the ones her father left behind because, he too, didn’t like them. Martha had always thought her mother loved them. She was also very surprised to learn that her mother hated spending summers in the mountains. She always liked the beach, but Martha remembered her being happy every summer on the day they left for the little house her father had bought in the Pyrenees. She also discovered, and this was the hardest part, that they had a very serious marital crisis. It was a very tough time for her mother, when she cried a lot. The ink on those pages was smudged by tears, and the pages were deformed by the effect of humidity. But Martha, despite the dates written in the diaries, couldn’t place that in time, because her mother never showed the slightest expression of suffering.
In those notebooks, Martha found many clues on how to love her husband, in silence. As her mother used to say: “I want what God wants.”
