I will contemplate Your Passion.
My dear Lord, how painful this scene is! One of Your friends, betraying You. The rest, doubting themselves. You, completely left alone. It hurts even more when I realize that I, too, have left You alone so many times. Worse still, I have also handed You over to the cross for a few coins. Every sin is handing You over for those “coins”: a moment of pleasure, a “I just really feel like it,” words spoken out of place, a criticism, a lack of self-giving… Lord, it deeply pains me to have handed You over to the cross so many times. There You are, suffering horribly, courged, nailed, broken… because of my sin.
My good Jesus, I do not want to sin anymore. During these holy days, I will contemplate Your Passion, filled with sorrow for what I have done to You. Filled with repentance so as never to do it again. Filled with love for what You have done for me, for giving Yourself up even unto death for my salvation. And filled with hope, to receive all the mercy and grace that flow from Your pierced Heart, so that with the strength of Your Holy Spirit I may live a life of prayer and the sacraments, a life that rejects sin, that desires only to be filled with Your Love in order to give itself like You, to love like You.
I love You so much, Lord! Thank you for everything.
Applied to married life:
Cath: Steve, this Holy Week I want it to be special. I want us to truly accompany the Lord in His Passion. To be aware that He gave Himself for us, that that “fear to the point of death,” that sweat of blood, those lashes, that torture, that crucifixion… were for us.
Steve: Yes, it’s incredible what He has had to do for us. It makes me so sad not to have been aware of the seriousness of my sins. Every sin of mine meant that torture for Him. I know that in Confession His Mercy has forgiven me. But since every future sin of mine would add more pain to His suffering, I don’t want to sin anymore. I know I am a sinner, but I’m going to do everything I can not to fall again, to live with determination a life of prayer and the sacraments, and a path of purification of my heart, so that, with His Grace, I may spare Him more suffering.
Cath: Yes, and with the hope of knowing that from His pierced Heart comes everything we need to walk that path of holiness. We have no excuse. He has given us everything we need to achieve it. Let’s go for it with determination!
